Through Pain Comes Strength
I remember walking into the house on a normal Wednesday afternoon- at least so I had thought- with just the same old song and dance routine I had used all that week. Waiting at the door was my mother which was an immediate red flag. She was not supposed to get off work until four o’clock but today something seemed wrong and oh how I wish my instinct was wrong.
After placing my bag on the floor, I had received the crushing blow that my grandmother had passed away; the news was devastating and I almost falling out of my chair. She had been sick for a month or two with pancreatic cancer and although her struggle was long, it was a positive that her suffering was over. On the other side of the spectrum, a sense of pain and resentment for her leaving us came over me. “How could she leave? I just saw her a few weeks ago”; thoughts that echoed through my head. I knew she was in a happier place, but to me I was not and I felt pain and an overall sadness come over me.
As time passed on, the fact of her no longer being here began to sink in, but a different feeling passed over me; a sense of resiliency.
I later found that the life lessons and ideas she passed onto me were not for nothing, and after applying these characteristics to my life I felt her make her way back into my life. Knowing her, learning to push forward from this was a life lesson in its own.
My grandmother was philosophical and “deep” like that, believing always to conquer obstacles that may lie in front of goals and aspirations. Thanks to her I found that although her passing shook me to the core, it also appeared to give me the will power to come out on top.
Although her passing was unexpected, my grandmother passed down more insight to me in seventeen years of life than some people receive in a lifetime.
Thanks to her love and support, I am fully in belief that I can conquer the biggest of problems that may arise in the future.
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